Grace Enough

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Tonight I am focusing on Grace. Because there just has to be some. There always has been before, even when it was far worse than this, so I think I'm pretty safe. This time sucks. Before Grace, I mean. Between the end and the next beginning, when Grace becomes pretty much self-evident. Until then, I'm going to think about the beauty of that eventual Grace and how good this sweet tea vodka tastes. I am alive and breathing, if a bit disappointed. I still have me. And ultimately that may be Grace enough.

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